にゃにこれ♥
Just Us Four
Colourful Drink~♪
After exams my friends and I went for crepes and karaoke. It was a great way of spending time together and just relaxing after a stressful week.
何これ？
Under a Reading Tree
I just finished my ap bio exam, which is also my last exam this semester!
I went home, used the laptop for a while then too a nap. I had a strange dream (I won’t go into detail), but basically all my friends/classmates were on a boat and it was about to explode and I was the only to stay back because I was a sacrafice (I don’t know the reason, but that word was used alot in my dream). It was really sad because everybody got on safety boats and then the boat exploded. For once, my dream concluded before I woke up.
I didn’t know why, but for some reason I felt something negative in me and started to cry and cry. It was weird because when I cry, there’s usually a sour feeling in my chest but I was crying and it felt like that negative feeling was leaving me in chunks. And strangely, my tears were sizes of marbles! My dream reflected everything that had happened recently, or atleast in a metaphorical way. After I cried, I felt emotionally drained, but I feel so relieved now.
Hard at Work
Exams on my birthday. Just cleared my spanish exam aaaannddd one more to go. AP BIOLOGY. Yay, I’m legal now!
Nothing but a cup of jasmine tea and my lovely 7th Edition Biology text.
The whole “thing” with that boy I metioned before…I won’t fill in on the detail (ok, i won’t tell you 98% of it), it didn’t turn out too well. It was really horrible and really messy…I think I’m like, but I’m at the “every breath makes my chest hurt” stage. I basically need to keep every second of my life occupied and make sure it’s not quiet because when it’s quiet, I start to think about things. I feel so pathetic, I’m like the girl that I don’t want to be…sulking and gettin all depressed for a guy. It’s horrible. Right now, I just want to kick him so hard.
I’ve been hearing stories from my friends and how they deal with relationships and downfalls of the sort. I don’t think I could do all those things if I liked someone. Love isn’t exactly on my top 5 list…I know its mean, but I can never understand why people would sacrafice so much and can be so forgiving even though its theirs or the latter’s fault. I just want to laugh at all the drama they’ve caused. I can never do “give my all” for anyone if I knew I could never benefit from it. Call my insecure or selfish, but I’m out for myself… In the end, if the world turns their back on you, YOU are your own ally. If you can’t take care of yourself, then…well.
I’m always going back and forth from being naive and not…to be honest, I’m pessimistic and I’m not naive at all. I just want to believe so badly that their are fairytales in real life, and theres such thing as “your other half” and that the world has evil and good people. Itd make life more romantic and less complicated. But all that is a bunch of bullshit! Yeah, it can be a downer if I expressed myself like that….
I’m angry and regrettfull right now ahaha. I know when I look back at this, I’ll laugh and be embarassed. I wasn’t going to write about this because I wanted to preserve a nice memory, but I know either way I’ll still remember this. Good think I have my friends who are willing to listen even though don’t know how to deal with this situation.
The Moon
This photo doesn’t do the real thing any justice! It was SOOOO big and bright that night. And the details on the moon was amazing!!! It’s the most beautiful moon I’ve in this city.
Huevo de Flan
Today we had a party in Spanish to celebrate the last day. My friend brought flan~~~ Yum!
